"Tell me where is fancy bred? Or in the heart, or in the head? How
begot, how nourished? Reply! Reply!"
There's a time they all blame you
And a time they want to shame you
Into taking all their anger
Out on you...
Well pardon me if I'm always crying
And pardon me if it seems I'm lying --
Pardon me, but I'm not buying
That I'm the only one
Here to blame...
Life's too short to play that game
You don't even call my name
But you can blame it all on me
If you want to...
I don't care anymore
I walked out that old door
Into a window bright and blue
Where the sun is shining all anew...
Days go by and you don't call
I don't even care at all
I've found all that's good in me
And you don't even want to see.
It's your loss, it's your pain
It's your cost, it's your game
You can win it, I don't care
I'm no longer even aware.
So go ahead, go away ... go on go on,
this silly game you want to play....
Though many years have passed since last we met,
Thoughts of thee can make me smile most gladly;
While parting left us echoes of regret,
Golden haze lights love that ended badly.
Time cannot change true feelings of the past,
Nor distance dim the brightest fire's glow;
Yet love doth change and is not meant to last,
And lovers minds cannot the future know.
There lives a part of me inside of thee,
And part of thee resides within my breast;
The better part of us remains most free,
To love another better suited guest.
I would not change what passed between our hearts,
But love is ended when the lover parts.
What is it that we seek
In all these other worlds?
Is it just to escape
The mundane parts of life?
Or is it to break the rules -
At least for a little while
At least in our minds.
We enter these alternate realities
And admire their creators -
Maybe even hope to make
Worlds of our own one day
They give us new ideas
And play out our fantasies -
Safe little games of fiction.
But where is the guidebook
For those of us who really
Want to change the world -
Not just imagine what we want
But make it real - "make it so"
Not just to make a nice world
In our heads, but in reality?
The hero's journey is always hard -
To fight the things that are wrong
That everyone else seems to accept.
What they never tell you is that
The hardest part is coming back
To the real world, after you've seen
The peace and beauty of your own soul.
Glowing embers of a galaxy
That never was, dying in vacuum
This nebula lacked the starstuff
To become a blazing fire
Drifting through space and time
Remains floating quietly
No one mourns its passing
No one sings its praises
All its promises lost
No passions flare within
Whatever glory might have been
Lies hidden in frozen silence
For five minutes conversation...
Searching to find the words
That will never be there
Words do so little to express
The thoughts I think,
the way I feel.
(Do the words even matter?)
This is something new
Something different
A quiet place to wait
While they
go on their way.
(Do they even care?)
Watching everyone so busy
Knowing what really matters.
What they do today
Will be gone tomorrow -
They don't realize it.
(Do they see the future?)
I know their hearts
I see deeper than they know
Reaching inside to their
Frustration, desperation -
I wish I could give them this calm.
(Do they want this peace?)
Let them know
They are what matters
Not the work, not the time
Not this place or this busy frenzy -
Just themselves, for themselves.
(Do they even notice me?)
... what would I give?
Walking outside tonight
Smelling that familiar scent
The one that says, "Autumn"
Thinking of you again,
My old friend.
How many Autumns has it been
Since that beautiful night
We climbed the stairway to the stars
Together for the first time?
A soft kiss joined us...
Ages and ages ago
You're long gone from me now
We married other lovers
But that familiar scent of Autumn
Always brings you to mind.
Think of a love lost long ago
Dream of a love never found
Live in a love that comes and goes
In a love where I seem to be bound.
Too many nights spent all alone
Lost inside thoughts and dreams
Longing for something I'll never have
For what never can be, it seems.
Trying so hard to be content
With life the way it is
But always so dissatisfied
When it takes more than it gives.
Dream of a night so long ago
When for once I was myself
But it was just a fantasy
Now put back on the shelf.
Such a short time there is left
And still it slips on by
Such a short time we are here
Before we say goodbye.
Living in the deep regret
Of what will never be
Longing for the simple bliss
That your touch gave to me.
So finally I see that look in your eyes -
That is what I wanted after all, isn't it?
To know the truth about what you feel,
To let you know how I feel, share it with you...
Then why can't I just accept that, and let go,
Stop wanting more than we can give
But I replay tonight over and over in my mind -
And I know I won't stop wanting you now.
You say there are limits, but we both know
That actions speak louder than words, don't we?
Our minds may say this is as far as it goes,
But our bodies know better, and say, "more".
I can't explain why I feel the way I do -
Maybe it's just because you make me feel smart
Or because together we just sort of sparkle,
Or as a movie writer would say, it's just "magic".
Whatever the reasons, we can't deny it now -
The feelings are there, and real, and we both know
So what remains is what to do about them,
How to handle our feelings and keep in control.
But if you build a dam to hold back the river,
The water may get deeper and deeper with no release,
Until finally the dam breaks, or overflows.
"Still waters run deep" you say, and so they do.
I miss the quiet peacefulness
The stillness that surrounds us
I miss looking in your eyes -
Seeing the surprise, the desire.
I miss the touch of your hand,
The hard, muscular feeling of you,
Watching you control what you feel
Although you wanted so much not to.
I miss feeling your hands massage my neck.
I miss feeling your lips kissing mine,
I miss your sigh, the smile of pleasure -
I miss the way you tell me to leave.
Take my love for granted, that's ok -
Take my friendship for granted too.
Because the truth is they are both
Already granted unto you.
As constant as the Northern Star,
Well that's a phrase that people use,
But you and I we know enough
To know the Northern Star moves too.
It's only that the Northern Star
Moves right along with you -
So you don't notice it's still there
Until the course that's changed is you...
But wherever your journey takes you
You can look and I'll be there
Like the star's familiar motion
You can believe I'll always care.
To you my friendship,
To you my love and support,
To you my warm touch.
From you your friendship,
From you your feelings and touch,
From you your warm fire.
In us there is fire,
In us there is warmth and love,
In us there is strength.
Across this river that separates us
I build a bridge to try and reach you,
I cannot stop the river from flowing,
But I can build my bridge safe and strong.
Across the time that spans between us
I tell a story that is timeless,
I cannot turn back the hands of the clock,
But I can make your story endless.
Across this space that divides us
I reach out my hand to hold you.
I cannot close the gap between us,
But I can hold your hand across it.
Across the cold night air between us,
I send my love to try and warm you.
I cannot lift the chill of the evening,
But I can feel your fire across it.
What lingers behind
A bittersweet memory
Empty place inside
Where my heart wanted
The earth in bloom with flowers
Only weeds grow there
How to renew it
Prepare a new foundation
Start over again
When years have gone by
Memories of flowers remain
Faded but happy
Who will sow with me
Not the one I wanted there
That much I can tell
Why is it this way
Desiring but not holding
I must let you go
Love was a promise
A dream we shared together -
A new start to life.
Love was in the eyes
Of a a small newborn baby -
Love had tiny hands.
Once you came to me
To ask me how to save Love -
But Love went away.
Once I came to you
To ask you where to find Love -
But Love wasn't there.
Then I saw your eyes
The way you looked at me that night -
I knew where Love was.
Love is where it is
Doesn't listen to reason -
Doesn't have a choice.
Love is but a gift
Love is given and taken -
Then taken away.
The day that Love died
That was the hardest of days -
Love lost forever.
The Love that is gone
That will never come again -
My heart is so sad.
Only in my mind
Can the Love last forever -
Memories of Love.
Something barely seen
In the lingering shadows
Cast by the moonlight
Only a brief glimpse
From the corner of your eye
Of what might have been
And then it is gone
In the bright light of the day
Nothing left behind
Then you slowly wake
And sadly you realize
It's only a dream.......
I thought that with you,
I would always be kept safe,
But life is not safe.
Nothing can protect us
From the fate we all share -
Only illusions.
We deceive ourselves,
Trying not to know that
We are one, and many.
One, always alone,
And many, always apart -
Rarely connecting.
Love makes us believe
We don't have to be alone -
Re-creating life!
The life we create
Is its own life though, not ours -
Ours will come to end.
And in the ending,
Come all the new beginnings
That we will not see.
Live in light and joy
Loving, learning, and laughing -
Growing and sharing.
It was about friendship
Changing perceptions, losing touch
Mistakes made, words said,
Apologies given, refused,
A goodbye
That didn't want to be said.
But having said that goodbye,
It is about a memory
an image of friendship
Never to say goodbye to
Though the beloved friend
is gone.
May his silence bring him peace.
May he be happy, loved,
and have all he wants in life.
Maybe it's time
To begin anew ...
Start a new chapter
Write a new book
Fresh characters
The mists of dreams
What we all seek
Is a new perspective
The different view
That sees everything
fresh, new, exciting
Makes us believe
We can change
We can grow
We are special
Love can do that
Joy can do that
We can do that...
So, tomorrow, start again
In a new space
For a new time
Take what is learned
And make it better.
There isn't black or white
Anymore today,
I suddenly woke up
To a thousand shades of gray.
I've lost the either/or,
And now forever more
I will know there is more
I have yet to explore.
I looked into your eyes
And I saw the past
And then I realized
It goes much too fast.
You're not a child now
I'll turn around and how
You'll have grown
And have flown
And I'll never have known.
I've got to find a way
To make this moment stay!
I've got to find the time
To really make it mine.
I look behind me and it's gone
I've got to carry on
And find the path
That takes me back...
It's there in your eyes
It's such a surprise
To see the world again
As if it were new!
The joy that you show to me
Now you have set me free
And I see that at last
I can reach to the past.
And so I carry on
With the chores today,
But somehow now I know
There is more to say.
I'll find my voice again
I'll have a choice again
You have shown my how
I know even now.
That life is what you make it -
The chance is there so take it!
And when you turn around,
Then at last you've found
There's an open door
Into nevermore ...
But what you've done here
Will not disappear.
For my Friend
Trying to find a way back
Into your heart again
Why don't I just give it up?
I know I'll never have you
You and I, the best of friends,
And for you that's where it ends,
So why can't I just
Let it go at that?
Trying to find my way
Through this crazy world
I turned to you and for a while
You made it all right
Until you found a new place
You didn't see me any more
I tried to find my way without you
But you were still on my mind
And so I pushed too hard
I went too far
I reached beyond
The place you are
And when I tried to go back
And find you again
You were somewhere else
I nearly lost my friend
I know you don't understand
Just what I see in you
I see more than you want to show
I say more than you want me to
I just want you to be happy
I just want for you to know
I am always on your side
No matter how the story goes.
The love is what remains
When the battles are over
When the friendships are shattered
When the goodbyes have been said
And the years have gone by
The love is what remains
The sadness wains
The hurt diminishes
The longing fades
The sorrows pass
The grief dies down
But the love remains
The many years of laughter
The shared dreams and hopes
The plans and schemes
The smiles and the tears
The hugs and reassurances
Those remain forever
You can hold on to resentment
You can hold on to silence
You can hold on to fear
You can hold on to the past
You can hold on to the hurt
I will hold on to the love for my friends
that remains
"We grow and evolve,
And move away from things that
Used to captivate us."
"It's part of life..."
"You're so far beyond me..."
"Trade offs - "
First love, dizzy time
I found the emeralds I searched for
I dreamed of the ending
"I don't really want to know."
"So what do you say
We move on..."
Triad
Feelings never felt before,
Climbing to the stars.
Never-ending love,
Now forever by my side
Always in my heart.
The friend who vanished
Taking his friendship away,
Not understanding.
The triad that stands
Holding my heart forever,
One near, two distant.
Emeralds
In the depths of your green eyes
And in your eyes I saw reflected
The movements of the tides
And in the tides I saw the glow
Of life itself as it comes and goes
The spark and fire of all we are
From the earth below to the highest star
I watched the waves as they rose and fell
Knowing always all too well
That time and tide would never wait
We would be washed in the tides of fate
The spark that lingers on the shore
Lives in my heart forever more
Love never dies, it never ends
It lives in the eyes of our dearest friends
I found the emeralds I searched for
In the fires of your green eyes
And in my own you'll see reflected
The kind of love - that never dies...
The Last Best Book of Everything
An end-of-the-universe dream
We wrote a book called
"The Last Best Book of Everything"
It was full of jokes and stories
Full of love
Poems and flowers and more
It was sad, losing everything.
But it was joyous, remembering
What we had.